..not anymore. It’s late now, and I typed that in the morning.
It’s important to acknowledge your own temperament. What are you okay with doing? What are you willing to do?
Can you be the paradigm of your values, trying to run before you walk? I’m looking for the answer that creates a penultimate transcendence wherein my body is merely a construct.
Can efficiency be achieved purely through “grit,” or is it better met through meaning?
Your dysfunction is that you are reactional to dysfunctional people. You look at dysfunctional people, and you see they cant do the bare minimum, you say — they are weak, but when you experience that lack of followthrough, you assume you are just as weak as them.
Acknowledge your strengths and stop preoccupying yourself with your weaknesses because your weaknesses will erode as you commit yourself more.
Acknowledge it’s hard to put yourself into the ideation you want to be. We tend to fixate on the absence of qualities we want.
This idea of you developing yourself into the existentially well-pistoned worth machine, while noble, is fucking hard. And it’s not an overnight thing, but it will be cumulative.
Let yourself acclimate. If it doesn't feel right, don't just sit there. If there’s a better situation waiting for you, pursue it.
- a conversation with Josh about personal dysfunction.
